The ultimate love affair

It all began,
As an unexpected, extraordinary encounter.
Amidst an ordinary reality.
A moment in time that seemed to be timeless.
When boundaries blurred, and limitations evaporated.
My heart awe-struck, exploded-open.
No past identity, none for the future.
Just being, now.

Was it a memory or an awakening?

At first there was the encounter.
Imprinted in cellular memory, it is relived now, again and again.
Wow. Wow. The juices flowing, the heart expanding.
What was before is forgotten.
What was before the before is remembered.
The not-knowing unimportant, the memory so delicious.
I am swept into the journey.

And softly develops the calling.
And gradually comes the yearning. More. More!

My mind does not understand, it grasps for control.
But my body remembers.
My soul knows. My heart knows.
Here I am. Here I am.
For so very long I have been waiting for this.
For so very long I have been waiting for this.
I didn’t know. I couldn’t name it or create it.
But now I do.

More. More. Take me home.

I lay back into the warm, loving embrace.
My body seems to fit naturally.
I feel safe. All tension melts away.
Naked. There is nothing to hide. Every part of me is seen, held, loved.
Every cell in my body. Every part of my existence.

Relief. Tears flow.
Layer upon layer, recent and ancient, peeled away, released, held, healed.
I am soothed. I am loved.

The sense of love is all-consuming.
My body opens. I am penetrated to my deepest core.
Energy expands out in all directions and ripples through my being.
Every cell in my body vibrates.
I am lost. I no longer know what I knew. I no longer am what I was.
I die. I am born. I AM.

The mind jumps in to control the story.
The ego plays games to create havoc.
The power and the flow and the wow disappear.
The ordinary becomes unbearable.
The separation painful.
The searching desperately unsatisfying.
Suddenly, naked and open, unprotected, in an insensitive world.
Fear takes hold.
Yearning to reconnect. The soul seems heavy.

And she calls. And she calls.
Am I prepared to listen?

She calls to be heard. She calls to be felt. She calls to be known.
We sit. We meet. Vulnerably intimate.
With curiosity and compassion, humility and courage.
Nothing is made wrong. Nothing avoided. Nothing sought.

I sit with fear and hear her out until she feels safe to let go her desperate grip.
I acknowledge pain until she feels ready to soften and evolve.
I meet anger face to face and give her free voice.
I meet sadness and allow her to flow and flow. Age-old rivers. Oceans.

And as she flows I remember.
Her flow bursting my heart open with passion and aliveness.
All of life coursing through my veins.
Rivers of memories awakening my cells.
I AM all that I AM. I AM the ALL.

All that I have been yearning for. All that I have been searching for.
Here it is, again. Of course, it was never gone. It was never any different.

Through the joy and elation, the pain and the sadness, the fear and the confusion.
Through the resistance and surrender, the separation and reconnection.
The fire burns stronger, deeper. My heart bursting open.
I feel alive, so alive. And I dance. And I dance.
And I sing. And I sing.
Ancient and present uniting. Divinity and humanity integrating.
Here I AM.

Here it is. Right here.
The ultimate intimate union. The ultimate love affair.

It all began As an unexpected, extraordinary encounter Amidst an ordinary reality A moment in time that seemed to be timeless When boundaries blurred, and limitations evaporated My heart awe-struck, exploded-open No past identity, none for the future Just being, now. Was it a memory or an awakening? At first there was the encounter. Imprinted in cellular memory, it can be relived now, again and again. Wow. Wow. The juices flowing, the heart expanding. What was before is forgotten. What was before the before is remembered. The not-knowing unimportant, the memory so delicious. I am swept into the journey. And softly develops the calling, then the yearning. More. More. My mind does not understand, it grasps for control. But my body remembers. My soul knows. My heart knows. Here I am. Here I am. For so very long I have been waiting for this. For so very long I have been waiting for this. I didn't know. I couldn't name it or create it. But now I do. More. More. Take me home. I lay back into the warm, loving embrace. My body seems to fit naturally. I feel safe. All tension melts away. Naked. There is nothing to hide. Every part of me is seen, held, loved. Every cell in my body. Every part of my existence. Relief. Tears flow. Layer upon layer, recent and ancient, peeled away, released, held, healed. I am soothed. I am loved. The sense of love is all-consuming. My body opens. I am penetrated to my deepest core. Energy expands out in all directions and ripples through my being. Every cell in my body vibrates. I am lost. I no longer know what I knew. I no longer am what I was. I die. I am born. I AM. The mind jumps in to control the story. The ego plays games to create havoc. The power and the flow and the wow disappear. The ordinary becomes unbearable. The separation painful. The searching desperately unsatisfying. Suddenly, naked and open, unprotected, in an insensitive world. Fear takes hold. Yearning to reconnect. The soul seems heavy. And she calls. And she calls. Am I prepared to listen? She calls to be heard. She calls to be felt. She calls to be known. We sit. We meet. With curiosity and compassion, humility and courage. Nothing is made wrong. Nothing avoided. Nothing sought. I sit with fear and hear her out until she lets go her desperate grip. I ride the pain until she feels ready to soften and evolve. I meet anger face to face and give her free voice. I meet sadness and allow her to flow and flow. Age-old rivers. Oceans. And as she flows I remember. Her flow bursting my heart open with passion and aliveness. All of life coursing through my veins. Rivers of memories awakening my cells. I AM all that I AM. All that I have been yearning for. All that I have been searching for. Here it is, again. Of course, it was never gone. It was never any different. Through the pain and the sadness, the fear and the confusion. Through the searching and the separation. The fire burns stronger, deeper. My heart bursting open. I feel alive, so alive. Ancient and present uniting. Divinity and humanity connecting. Here it is. Right here. The ultimate intimate union. The ultimate love affair.

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