25 ways to raise your vibrations this winter and why it’s important

Do you notice that during the winter months it can be easy to let your vibrations lower? Do you feel heavier and less motivated? It’s not the case for everyone but I certainly feel that I need to be more consciously and actively finding ways to raise my vibrations every day.

It’s because it’s darker and colder, you may be inside more, less active, eating more and heavier food, watching tv and spending more time looking at computer screens, and that will all affect your moods and thoughts. 

It can be hard to just change your thoughts and mood because you want to. As soon as you take measures to raise your vibrations though, your thoughts and experience of life immediately change!

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What does it mean to have high or low vibrations?

We all vibrate energetically at a particular frequency. The lower the frequency, the denser your energy. What you sometimes forget is that this directly affects your experience of life. Problems seem heavier too. You may experience heavier emotions, darker thoughts or lack of clarity, and more pain and discomfort in your physical body. It takes more energy and effort to get things done. There is less flow in your body and in life. This can lead to dis-ease.

The higher the frequency at which you vibrate energetically, the lighter you feel in your physical, emotional, and mental bodies. You have a sense of ease and flow in your body and your life. Challenges and emotions are dealt with easily. You manifest what you want almost as soon as you dream it. You feel more love and compassion, power, clarity, peace, and joy. Your energy is literally full of light!

Why is it important to raise your vibrations?

As Albert Einstein once said:

“Everything is energy and that’s all there is to it. Match the frequency of the reality you want and you cannot help but get that reality. It can be no other way. This is not philosophy. This is physics.”

So when you raise your vibrations you are literally emanating and attracting health, love, compassion, positivity, clarity, abundance, joy and so on. You will attract situations and people that are vibrating at that same high level as you. And similarly, you’ll attract lower vibrational people and situations when you lower your vibrations.

That gives me plenty of motivation! How about you? In fact, I would say that it is my number one priority and my conscious life path now to be making choices that consistently raise my vibrations.

Can you feel it? Take responsibility for your vibrational frequency.

We all have access to feeling our energy and the changes in our vibrations. I invite you from now on though to become really conscious of it, and especially of how your state of vibrational frequency is affecting you and others.

Tune in to your body, thoughts and emotions regularly during the day to see how you are feeling. Notice what is happening in your life, how people are acting, what situations are coming up and how you are responding to them. This is reflecting back to you something important about your own vibrations.

Once you are aware of it, you can take action to raise your vibrations for positive impact.

25 easy ways to consciously raise your vibrations

Ok, so here are a bunch of ways to consciously raise your vibrations this winter.

  1. Breathe deeply – From simple abdominal breathing to complex pranayama techniques, breathing is one of the most effective ways to let go of tension, get into your body and get your energy flowing again. It can be a powerful way to activate your energy body and access higher states of consciousness.
  2. Dance – Try starting your day by dancing for 15 minutes to your favourite uplifting tunes, or find yourself a Five Rhythms tribe locally, and make intuitive, free expression through your body a regular practice.
  3. Spend time in nature – It’s a no-brainer. Get your body saturated in the abundant negative ions in nature so that you feel alive and vibrant. Guaranteed effect!
  4. Get plenty of healing sleep and rest – Make it a priority for your body to regenerate through deep healing sleep and periods of conscious rest.
  5. Eat unprocessed, fresh, organic food, slowly and with gratitude – All food vibrates too. So your choice of food, where and how it is produced, as well as how you prepare and eat it, is going to have a direct impact on your vibrations.
  6. Drink lots of pure water – There is loads of evidence now showing how water crystals change depending how it is treated and the container you put it in. A flower of life bottle or even your own positive thoughts can make a difference.
  7. Practice gratitude – Instant gratification from a very different source than shopping or eating!! Make it a daily practice before bed to count your blessings and realise how lucky you are to have so much abundance and love in your life.
  8. Practice acts of kindness – It brings such a warm feeling to your heart to offer spontaneous compliments or little acts of kind service to total strangers and to loved ones alike.
  9. Laugh out loud – A good old belly laugh triggers the release of endorphins, the body’s natural feel-good chemicals, decreases stress hormones and increases immune cells and infection-fighting antibodies.
  10. Love – Ok, this is the fast food for high vibrations. Nothing is more impactful on our system than the vibration of love. Even just imagining someone or something you love will raise your vibrations. This is not so much about being in love, but more about being love, thus in a state of love.
  11. Sing and sound – Whether it’s hollering in the car, howling under the full moon, blazing out the Bohemian Rhapsody under the shower, or singing a lullaby to your baby (or yourself), activating your voice consciously is like super food! Chanting OM puts you in direct vibration with the Universe.
  12. Let go – Release locked up tension and energy by actively letting go of attachment, fear, resistance, resentment and need to control. Allow feelings to be expressed consciously as they come up so that emotions don’t get locked up inside. Feel your fear and do it anyway. Trust your intuition and step forward into the unknown.
  13. Dream – Another superfood for your body. Spend time day dreaming. Imagine it in full colour, feel it in your body, taste it, smell it, hear it. Literally dream your life and the world you most desire into being.
  14. Be you – Be honest and authentically you. Do what you love to do. Be a full and unique expression of you in every moment. This is true high vibration existence!!
  15. Receive an energy healing – Energy healing and energetic body work, including conscious massage, is very powerful to help raise your vibrations. You just need to relax and open yourself to the flow of energy.
  16. Meditation  – The key thing is to bring yourself into the present moment, relaxing into what is, in order to access deeper being and knowing. This instantly brings you into higher vibrations.
  17. Practice Yoga, Tai Chi or Qi Gong – All of these practices use breath and movement to consciously clear the energy channels – essential to allow energy to flow freely again, bringing and maintaining ease, clarity and vitality.
  18. Hugs – The real, body-embracing, long, loving type of hugs, are scientifically proven to stimulate oxytocin, serotonin, and dopamine, balance the nervous system, enhance the immune system, reduce heart rate and reduce worry of mortality. Let’s get hugging!
  19. Extended sensual and sexual pleasure – This is what Tantra is all about. It’s not about having great sex really, it’s about accessing and extending high vibrational pleasure states in life in order to heal and access higher states of consciousness. It is about living in an orgasmic state, vibrantly alive and joyful.
  20. Spend time with animals – Pure, grounded, and often, enlightened beings. There’s no analysis of whether their parents treated them right or blaming the government for all the woes of the world. Animals are present moment high vibrators.
  21. Play with children – Babies and children are naturally high vibrational. Spending time playing with them will help you activate your childlike joy, freedom and awe and wonder of the world too.
  22. Spend time with inspiring, uplifting people  – As Jim Rohn said, “You are the average of the 5 people you spend most time with.” Find your tribe and spend time with people who are actively being positive, living on purpose and making the world a better place. Read inspiring books and watch great TED talks.
  23. Be creative with your hands  – Your hands are energetically connected to your heart. Write, paint or make something with your hands and your heart.
  24. Clear your space of negative and artificial energy – Turn off all devices and get away from computer screens as much as possible. Use crystals or essential oils to clear the energy in your home. Use natural cleaning products. Turn off wifi and phones when you sleep.
  25. Open yourself to Universal energy – Simply open up and tune in to the energy of the Universe for healing and guidance. Ask for guidance from your Spirit guides. Believe that everything is happening FOR you and know that you are being supported and guided all the time.

Here’s wishing you a high vibrations this winter! Enjoy being orgasmically alive!

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Navigating the Dark

I seem to be apologising a lot lately! My shadow side showing up and getting projected out on to others. Perhaps it’s a quick cutting comment, or an energetic withdrawal and being cold, or more easily being in conflict. Sometimes it’s a sense of inner turmoil and feeling down, with self-doubt and addictive or self-defeating patterns showing up. Bleh! I don’t like when this is going on. I feel my body tense and a bit numb to emotions. I feel my vibrations low. I can sense I’m being protective or defensive. My mind is not trustworthy.

It’s a bit like walking through a bog (very Irish analogy), trying to tip-toe through, yet every so often dropping in up to your knees, or even falling flat on your face in the mud, and then blaming someone else rather than laughing out loud and rolling around in it!

Does any of this resonate for you? I’m hearing it from many people these days.

Navigating the dark, (c) Georgina Peard

Navigating the dark, (c) Georgina Peard

But of course!! Of course it’s so strong right now at the time of the Samhain, as we move into the darkest part of the year. We also had the dark new moon in Scorpio last weekend. Nature is always reflecting in and through us.

There is a blessing here folks! Oh yes! If this is showing up for you now, or whenever it does, it’s because you are being invited to acknowledge and love these shadow parts and the powerful energy they contain. No-one is whole without their shadow integrated.

You can try to fight it, hide it, ignore it, deny it, throw it away, and clean it up, but this will never work. Instead, own your shadow, name it, befriend it, dance with it, harness it and then channel it through the heart.

The dark holds your greatest gifts and power.  

The stronger the energy for you, the stronger the initiation. Congratulations, its means you are ready for this big transformation! This energy locked in the shadow is ready to be revealed. Are you ready to step up and be more of you?

When our shadows show up, it’s so easy to allow negative thoughts take over and feed a self-depracating inner dialogue. Our actions can exaggerate the situation, like not getting enough sleep, always staying busy, over-eating, spending too much time on the internet, or snapping at loved ones.

These thoughts and actions stem from a deep pain – the pain of feeling that, because of these shadow parts, we are bad, fake, and undeserving of good things, like love, community, success and happiness. As a result we choose the safe path in life and not to show up fully or go after what we want (in case we are found out and rejected, abandoned, humiliated etc.).

This is our core unworthiness and, the good news is, we all have it. 

The relief comes when we realise we are all the same, we all hold shame around these shadow parts, and so we step out of the fear of this unworthiness and we dare to face and befriend the shadow.

The extent to which you can take full responsibility and hold strong self-love for yourself when working with shadows, is the gauge of your personal growth and awakening. It’s not that they never show up again.

Navigating your inner landscape, and especially the dark, with love and compassion, humour and humility, is key to your freedom and happiness. 

BRING MORE CONSCIOUSNESS AND LOVE TO YOUR SHADOWS :

  • Make time to be still with yourself. Listen and feel what is really going on for you.
  • Love yourself and the shadow parts, like a mother unconditionally loving a child.
  • Give your shadow a name (mine is Gertrude) and role play with her/them.
  • Acknowledge your deeper pain and your needs.
  • Share your shadows, pain and needs with someone who can love you there.
  • Practice apologising in a way that you take full responsibility for your part.
  • Get more rest and sleep.
  • Take walks in nature on your own and open to her wisdom. Sing, dance, breathe.
  • Get clear on what you have learned.
  • Celebrate your progress.

Thank you
Finally, thank you for doing this work and bringing more consciousness to your shadows. Here I am just touching the surface of this subject, but it is, in my opinion, the most important ‘work’ we can do to transform our lives, our relationships and our communities.

Be gentle with yourself. All healing has its time. The first step is just to love yourself and know that all the way to your core, you are good, all good, and you are loved.

 

Listen deeply
Live courageously
Love fiercely

Georgina x

Fierce Love – from fear to empowered love

Fierce Love is believing that everyone, including you, is worthy of love, at all times.

Everyone… is worthy of love… at all times.

In any moment we are either choosing fear or love. Very often it’s an unconscious reaction to life circumstances, based on conditioning, past experiences and wounds.

Fear tends to put us into fight, flight or freeze mode. It creates contraction and tension in the body. There can be resistance, protection, defensiveness, righteousness, projection and judgement. It can be turned inward on yourself or outward onto others or life itself. Fear creates separation and difference.

Love feels open, expansive and spacious in the body. Energy flows freely. There is complete ownership and responsibility for yourself. There’s a sense of “live and let live”, giving others the space to be themselves. There’s a welcoming of life. Love heals through connection, understanding and compassion. It flows through vulnerability and honesty.

Everyone has their own story, their own path and their own challenges. They are doing what they can with what they’ve got, including their inner resources, their pain, their ignorance and their confusion. Even if their actions and words may seem wrong or inflict pain on you or others, can you still hold a place in your heart to love them?

This is Fierce Love.

Fierce Love is staying open in a state of love even when you’re not receiving love back or being give any good reason to love. 

I believe it’s possible to express anger from a place of love. It’s possible to not agree with someone’s actions or perspective, and still hold them in love. It’s possible to be in a state of empowered self-love even when you feel guilt or shame or fear.

I don’t believe it’s easy! But I believe it’s possible.

Fierce Love is a conscious, empowered and embodied state of being, whereby love is unconditional, human and universal. 

Fierce Love means expanding into a full expression of your aliveness. Georgina Peard.

Fierce Love means expanding into a full expression of your aliveness. Georgina Peard.

When I drop deeply into meditation with myself and with life, when everything else is removed, all I find is love. That’s all that remains. That’s all that I am and that we all are. Love.

Love is what we are made of. It’s our true nature. 

I want to know then how to make that real in every day life. If in my deepest core and in my heart of heart’s I know that I am love, and that we are all that, how do we make that our experience of life and each other? How do we hold true to that when it seems that it’s more common to meet fear, our own and others?

I don’t have the perfect answer. I often get it wrong.

My longing, however, is to learn. I want to live my life through love not fear.
I commit myself entirely to learning what it takes to keep choosing love. The conscious ‘want’, I believe, is at least the first step.

It hurts to experience anything else other than love. Whether I create that myself, or experience it in relationship to another person, or witness it in life, it’s painful.

It feels painful and destructive to hold anything else in my body and in my heart. And yet I have done. And yet I do. But my longing is to move away from that. To bring consciousness and awareness to what I am choosing. To work out what is fierce love, to work out what it takes to love fiercely in life.

There’s a part of me that wants to hide away and make my life really safe and comfortable, so that I can’t be hurt. It serves me well quite often to create my own world where I can ride my rainbow unicorn!! And sometimes that place is the only place from which I can continue to fill up on love and bring it out into the world. Yet I realise that at times the hiding away from life’s messiness is fear not love.

It takes fierce perseverance, determination, courage and self-worthiness to keep facing fear and choosing love. This is why I call it fierce love.

Fierce Love is making decisions, speaking the truth, and taking inspired and courageous action that honours your own divinity, your heart, and your goodness.

Can you have your heart broken and yet not close down in fear and protection, not become bitter or vengeful, and not blame or judge? It’s not about accepting or being ok with wrong-doing or any act that is not of love toward you. Rather, it is loving yourself so much that you choose to speak your truth and walk away. You choose to close that door in order to be able to stay in a state of love – open, spacious and free in yourself. You move away while at the same time holding the other person with love and wishing them well.

Life kindly gives us opportunities and situations where it seems difficult to love and where we are tested to dig deeper into the well of love to discover that it is in fact infinite.

Love is the one thing that has no limit.

It can be difficult to love ourselves at times. But not loving yourself is simply a continuation of the fear and violence outside, and therefore allowing it to continue within gives it reason to exist outside.

If we want more love in the world outside we must first start with more love within.

A sensitive heart, like mine, longs for nothing more that to love and be loved. The sensitive heart feels the world deeply. And so those of us who feel deeply are often the first to learn, at a young age, to protect and shut out the tremendous pain and discomfort of this confused reality that has lost touch with love.

Yet we need more sensitive hearts. More wholehearted people, willing to speak out and act from love and for love.

Let’s not allow the fear defeat and kill the love and compassion. Rather, let’s get together to acknowledge and feel stronger in love. Let’s use the messiness and intensity of life, not to build up walls of protection and separation, but rather to bring us together to learn love, grace, adaptability, humility, curiosity, and humour.

I call us to come together to learn what it means to love fiercely. 

So I call together those of us who want this; those of us who have the courage to try and to seek; those of us who know in our hearts that we are good, that we are love and we have a longing to make that manifest in our actions, words, thoughts, in how we live our lives, and in how we relate to others.

I call us together to sit together to learn and practice this together. This is a vulnerable and courageous path for it opens us up. It sheds light on the shadow, the ego and the monkey mind. It sheds light on what’s not working, as well as on the truth that unites us and that pulls us together.

This is a path that is honest, authentic, messy, beautiful, exhilarating. It’s not the easy one. It’s beyond the comfort zone.

For many of us there is no choice, because the only way for us to live in our truth is to live in love, fierce love.


ARE YOU READY TO EXPERIENCE FIERCE LOVE?

Join me and Niels Madsen at the upcoming Fierce Love Retreat. 

Book your place: georgina.peard@gmail.com

 

Sunrise meditation (Navigating the Shadow – part 2)

In my last post I wrote about navigating the shadow, and this beautiful playful dance between light and dark in ourselves. In this post I want to share a nice simple practice to relax and to let go in those moments that feel sticky or heavy, and to allow yourself fill up with the light again.

Talking to a very special mentor of mine this week, she described so eloquently the ebb and flow between our light and shadow parts, just like day and night. They are such integral parts of who we are. They come and go with the natural flow of life. There are times when we are consumed in the dark night of the shadow and other times filled with bright light. Just like day and night, we cannot and do not need to control them. Every day the sun rises to flood the landscape with its rays of light. Every night the sun sets and the darkness falls. Nothing can hold back this natural cycle.

So it is ok and totally normal to find ourselves going through times where we are in deeper conversation with our shadow, just as it is to sit wide awake on a dark night. In fact, these can be very profound, revealing and intimate moments with ourselves, when we are not in resistance to them and we can trust that the light will naturally reappear again, just as the sun is sure to rise the next morning.

sunrise meditation

Sunrise meditation
You might like to try this simple exercise when you have a moment to just close your eyes, even for just one minute. Ideally you can practice it for real outside in nature at sunrise, but you can do it by just closing your eyes and using your imagination, perhaps in the morning before you start the day, or at any moment that it feels right to allow more light in to your being.

  • Imagine yourself sitting, standing or lying outside, perhaps in nature where you feel safe and comfortable. It is early morning before sunrise. You are turned to face East, with a clear view in front of you of the horizon. Maybe it’s a lake and mountain tops, trees and grassy fields, the open sea, the desert or the rooftops of the city.
  • You settle in your body and get still. Tune-in to your body sensations as you relax more and more. Feel yourself letting go of all holding and tension. Notice the free-flowing rhythm of your breath.
  • Gradually the sun starts to rise over the horizon. Imagine the light starting to flood over the landscape. The sky, your body and all that is around you is gradually being lit up. Imagine the colours emerging. Nothing can stop it or slow it down – that light is coming no matter what. It is like a warm glow. Relax as you feel the warmth touch different parts of your body and notice the changing light and colours in your eyes.
  • Feel the light of the sun filling you up, healing, awakening and re-energising every cell in your body. Fully surrender your mind and body to this flood of light and feel your own light starting to react and radiate outward in reflection. How does it feel?
  • As you let go completely, acknowledge that you do not have to do or be or achieve anything more to receive this light or to be a source of radiant light. This is what you already are.
  • When you feel complete, give gratitude to this amazing sun, source of life and light.  As you move out of this practice into the rest of your day, let the light glow out through you all of your being, through your eyes, your smile, your heart and your whole body, so that simply being in your presence can light up all those around you.

I hope you enjoy this practice. Please let me know how it feels? I feel so radiant just writing it out here!

I'll just be happy

 

Navigating the shadow

Does it feel like you are rehashing old patterns and tossed around with gloomy thoughts or negativity about yourself or the world? Does it feel like more effort to stay in a state of love and light, even though you thought you were done with those old thought patterns? Are you internalising a lot, feeling tired and wanting to withdraw from the world? Are you noticing more conflicts, internal and/or external?

Fantastic! You are being gifted the opportunity to work with shadow. Here it is. Slam bang in your face! Bleh! Ugh!

The question is, do you say “Yes” to this opportunity?! Are you ready to upgrade to the next level of love? Are you ready to meet it all and welcome it all? The universe thinks you are!

Do you chose fear or love?

The shadow is what we fear. That which we keep in the shadows to avoid it being seen. It’s the “what I don’t want you to know about me”, and even more so, the “what I don’t want to accept about myself”. It is what disgusts you. We often have it so well hidden we don’t even realise it ourselves. I am not judgemental. I am not a jealous bitch. I am not evil.

To be that would be to be unlovable, to be rejected and abandoned. And that would feel like being left to die.

We compensate by emphasising the opposite (e.g. being super nice and always accommodating to others) or avoiding situations that awaken this shadow in our own consciousness or that might show it up.

We tend to internalise harsh and negative dialogue with ourselves and compensate with actions that can be self-harming, like addictions or situations not aligned with our truth. Perhaps it comes out all ugly in a passive aggressive way, projected on to others. The internal battlefield is externalised and you are in battle with the world. We also try to ‘purify’ and rid ourselves of these darker parts through all sorts of cleanses and spiritual practices and exercise and doing good. Or maybe we outright deny and suppress them.

Light and shadow

The fear of the shadow being uncovered, however, and all that you do, often unconsciously, to keep the shadow hidden, is a major driving force in your life.

The good news is that in the shadow lie your greatest strengths. Once owned and channelled through the heart that energy leads to powerful transformation. The release and directing of that energy is absolutely phenomenal. Seriously! I have witnessed and experienced this so many times.

Let’s take some very simple examples to illustrate where shadow = strength when the same energy is channeled consciously through the heart:

  • I am jealous = I am inspired to be a greater version of myself and create a better life
  • I am judgemental = I have a great ability of discernment
  • I am arrogant = I am leader
  • I am cold and lack compassion = I am level-headed and can see the big picture

So I beg of you, please, please stop trying to cleanse or meditate away or exercise away or suppress or get rid of your shadows. You can’t anyway, no matter how much you try. This would be like losing your juice!

Instead, shed light and love on your shadows. Tease them out with understanding and compassion. Create safety for them to be seen. Acknowledge their power and potential. Connect with their energy and give it direction for positive impact.

The exploration of my shadow has become an important regular, and even, dare-I-say, joyful practice for me. Not always easy, I would say that is the most empowering path I have ever taken. And I get to witness it again and again happening for others in my work.

To realise that you are still loveable and perhaps loved even more – you WITH all your shadows and fears and strategies to hide them – is the most liberating experience!!! Suddenly you are free to be and express and create all that you are meant to, and I’m pretty sure that you have something unique and important to share.

Hide and Seek – Catch me if you can!
As I reflected on this topic one early morning last week by the lake Geneva, my attention was drawn to a large tree. Two dark red squirrels were playing hide and seek around the trunk. Each one trying to see and catch the other, they were scampering around this tree with such speed and agility and glee, changing directions, left and right, up and down. I burst out laughing. That’s it! That is my light and shadow parts at play, doing this all the time, it is the constant dance.

So is it like this for you?

“You can’t see me! I’m the shadow!”
says the dark to the light, “You can’t catch me but I’m going to catch up on you and get you – run, run!”

Or is it more like this?

“I am going to see you dark one,” says the light to the dark, “and I’m going to shed all my light and love on you – you can’t hide.” 

Can you just enjoy the game? Can you relax in the dance with the dark partner?Which one is leading in your life right now in any particular situation?
Is it holding you back in some way?
Are you ready to direct that same energy through your heart? 

Now this is a big area to discuss, so in my next blogs I’ll write more about how I like to consciously and joyfully navigate the shadow.

I’d love to hear about your own experiences with this. Please do share your comments. And stay tuned for more.

The ultimate love affair

It all began,
As an unexpected, extraordinary encounter.
Amidst an ordinary reality.
A moment in time that seemed to be timeless.
When boundaries blurred, and limitations evaporated.
My heart awe-struck, exploded-open.
No past identity, none for the future.
Just being, now.

Was it a memory or an awakening?

At first there was the encounter.
Imprinted in cellular memory, it is relived now, again and again.
Wow. Wow. The juices flowing, the heart expanding.
What was before is forgotten.
What was before the before is remembered.
The not-knowing unimportant, the memory so delicious.
I am swept into the journey.

And softly develops the calling.
And gradually comes the yearning. More. More!

My mind does not understand, it grasps for control.
But my body remembers.
My soul knows. My heart knows.
Here I am. Here I am.
For so very long I have been waiting for this.
For so very long I have been waiting for this.
I didn’t know. I couldn’t name it or create it.
But now I do.

More. More. Take me home.

I lay back into the warm, loving embrace.
My body seems to fit naturally.
I feel safe. All tension melts away.
Naked. There is nothing to hide. Every part of me is seen, held, loved.
Every cell in my body. Every part of my existence.

Relief. Tears flow.
Layer upon layer, recent and ancient, peeled away, released, held, healed.
I am soothed. I am loved.

The sense of love is all-consuming.
My body opens. I am penetrated to my deepest core.
Energy expands out in all directions and ripples through my being.
Every cell in my body vibrates.
I am lost. I no longer know what I knew. I no longer am what I was.
I die. I am born. I AM.

The mind jumps in to control the story.
The ego plays games to create havoc.
The power and the flow and the wow disappear.
The ordinary becomes unbearable.
The separation painful.
The searching desperately unsatisfying.
Suddenly, naked and open, unprotected, in an insensitive world.
Fear takes hold.
Yearning to reconnect. The soul seems heavy.

And she calls. And she calls.
Am I prepared to listen?

She calls to be heard. She calls to be felt. She calls to be known.
We sit. We meet. Vulnerably intimate.
With curiosity and compassion, humility and courage.
Nothing is made wrong. Nothing avoided. Nothing sought.

I sit with fear and hear her out until she feels safe to let go her desperate grip.
I acknowledge pain until she feels ready to soften and evolve.
I meet anger face to face and give her free voice.
I meet sadness and allow her to flow and flow. Age-old rivers. Oceans.

And as she flows I remember.
Her flow bursting my heart open with passion and aliveness.
All of life coursing through my veins.
Rivers of memories awakening my cells.
I AM all that I AM. I AM the ALL.

All that I have been yearning for. All that I have been searching for.
Here it is, again. Of course, it was never gone. It was never any different.

Through the joy and elation, the pain and the sadness, the fear and the confusion.
Through the resistance and surrender, the separation and reconnection.
The fire burns stronger, deeper. My heart bursting open.
I feel alive, so alive. And I dance. And I dance.
And I sing. And I sing.
Ancient and present uniting. Divinity and humanity integrating.
Here I AM.

Here it is. Right here.
The ultimate intimate union. The ultimate love affair.

It all began As an unexpected, extraordinary encounter Amidst an ordinary reality A moment in time that seemed to be timeless When boundaries blurred, and limitations evaporated My heart awe-struck, exploded-open No past identity, none for the future Just being, now. Was it a memory or an awakening? At first there was the encounter. Imprinted in cellular memory, it can be relived now, again and again. Wow. Wow. The juices flowing, the heart expanding. What was before is forgotten. What was before the before is remembered. The not-knowing unimportant, the memory so delicious. I am swept into the journey. And softly develops the calling, then the yearning. More. More. My mind does not understand, it grasps for control. But my body remembers. My soul knows. My heart knows. Here I am. Here I am. For so very long I have been waiting for this. For so very long I have been waiting for this. I didn't know. I couldn't name it or create it. But now I do. More. More. Take me home. I lay back into the warm, loving embrace. My body seems to fit naturally. I feel safe. All tension melts away. Naked. There is nothing to hide. Every part of me is seen, held, loved. Every cell in my body. Every part of my existence. Relief. Tears flow. Layer upon layer, recent and ancient, peeled away, released, held, healed. I am soothed. I am loved. The sense of love is all-consuming. My body opens. I am penetrated to my deepest core. Energy expands out in all directions and ripples through my being. Every cell in my body vibrates. I am lost. I no longer know what I knew. I no longer am what I was. I die. I am born. I AM. The mind jumps in to control the story. The ego plays games to create havoc. The power and the flow and the wow disappear. The ordinary becomes unbearable. The separation painful. The searching desperately unsatisfying. Suddenly, naked and open, unprotected, in an insensitive world. Fear takes hold. Yearning to reconnect. The soul seems heavy. And she calls. And she calls. Am I prepared to listen? She calls to be heard. She calls to be felt. She calls to be known. We sit. We meet. With curiosity and compassion, humility and courage. Nothing is made wrong. Nothing avoided. Nothing sought. I sit with fear and hear her out until she lets go her desperate grip. I ride the pain until she feels ready to soften and evolve. I meet anger face to face and give her free voice. I meet sadness and allow her to flow and flow. Age-old rivers. Oceans. And as she flows I remember. Her flow bursting my heart open with passion and aliveness. All of life coursing through my veins. Rivers of memories awakening my cells. I AM all that I AM. All that I have been yearning for. All that I have been searching for. Here it is, again. Of course, it was never gone. It was never any different. Through the pain and the sadness, the fear and the confusion. Through the searching and the separation. The fire burns stronger, deeper. My heart bursting open. I feel alive, so alive. Ancient and present uniting. Divinity and humanity connecting. Here it is. Right here. The ultimate intimate union. The ultimate love affair.