My response to having my sacred space violated

 

Today as I arrived to set up for my Heart Circle I found our space had been broken into and burgled. Cupboards were open and everything had been searched and tossed around. I had that uncomfortable feeling of shock and fear rush through my body. Instead of carrying out a ritual to prepare the energy for our circle and open a healing space for raw and vulnerable heart sharing, I had to call the police.

I was shaken.

I was even more shaken when I discovered they had entered my temple space, where I hold all my sacred bodywork. They took from my altar my Buddha, mala beads, rattle and ceremonial feather. Really strange, yes! In fact they took nothing else but these, as they found no money.

It feels like it would have been easier though to let go of money, than to feel the violation of my sacred space.

Of course, at a superficial level it is nothing important. But there is something here that goes deeper, and to let it pass by as ‘nothing’ would be to let such violation be ok, and to dishonour something very sacred. This simple burglary is tiny but it represents something so much more common and almost accepted in our society.

“I have been robbed of this opportunity,” one of the participants realised as she struggled to manage the sudden feelings. Having sought out a loving, healing space and prepared to show up vulnerably and authentically with others in Heart Circle, this unexpected violent intrusion came as such a blow to her tender heart. I get it.

It’s not ok.

I have experienced being burgled before. I have been robbed in my home twice, and from a tent once while I was sleeping. Another time I was lying on a beach dozing in the sun when I had a vision of being robbed. I opened my eyes to find a man sitting beside me taking everything out of my handbag. Freaky but I had my guardian angels helping me out!

I have never enjoyed the feeling. Interestingly, though, while I’ve always experienced the shock and adrenaline rush in my body, and then perhaps the sadness and vulnerability, I never felt anger. There is a part of me that actually finds it very easy to let it go and forgive the violator, knowing that material objects are not important. As long as people are safe, all is fine.

While this has always been my honest, authentic response in the moment, and it is helpful to act pragmatically in the situation, I realize that it could also partly be a conditioned, protective response to avoid feeling too much, especially anger (which tends to be conditioned out of us) and to stay ‘level-headed’. On the other hand, lashing out in anger or spouting out words of hate or blame is useless too and just projecting out inner violence.

However, as I have grown stronger and more conscious in myself, I realize that this conditioned response is ignoring my own sovereign and sacred being and that it is not ok to violate my boundaries and my space. I was being quite vague around honouring my own boundaries. Yes, I genuinely felt safe in myself and loving towards others, even the thieves, and at the same time, it was a reflection of lacking some access to my inner fire.

What would be a normal response?

If I have my personal sacred space violated, I consider that a normal response is to feel the pain, the anger, the disgust, and the vulnerability of such violation. A normal response is to react in fury to personal, sovereign boundaries being crossed. A normal response is fierce protection of the sacred, authentic, vulnerable and the loving heart space, and those I am inviting in or holding within this tender space. This is the same ferociousness of any mother protecting her children.

It is essential to give space to all parts to be felt and not to deny them. This way you start to access more of yourself, your inner fire and your aliveness.

Now I recognize when I might be denying something, and I give myself time and space to drop into feeling it. Now I realise that in feeling all that there is to be felt around this violation of sacred space, I am honouring the sacred feminine.

Act in fierce protection of your sacred boundaries.

Act in fierce protection of your sacred boundaries. (c) Georgina Peard

Taking time to feel and clear the energy

So, today, after spending time with the participants, dealing with the police, and observing my first response and reactions, I went to the forest and gave myself full permission to feel all that needed to be felt; to say all that needed to be said; and to hear all that needed to be heard.

At first, I sat in stillness and dropped in to access what was there in the different parts of me. As I allowed myself to feel more, I let out the roars of anger and the cries of disgust and pain. I acknowledged the fear, the hurt and the sadness. I proclaimed my sovereign power as my birthright and reinstated my boundaries. I forgave. I sat still and I listened again and again. I followed instinctively my body until I felt I was complete in my own joy and in my clarity. I felt I had owned all that was mine and let go all that was not mine. I felt grounded and like, this time, I had honoured myself fully.

Nothing of my heart or my true divine essence can be taken from me by anyone as I long as I don’t allow it, and as long as I consciously honour this goodness in me.  Nothing from what I know and do with honour and integrity can be tarnished by anyone else’s judgements or disrespect. My truth is my truth.

I also did this for all of us who come into and consciously create sacred heart space.

I then went and did the same in the physical space and in my temple. I lit a candle and created an altar. I drummed and chanted and removed all unwanted energy. I reinstated the sanctity of the place. I called in the guardians of the space to fortify the energy and the safety. With every massage and healing session, yoga, meditation or pilates class, and every gathering and heart intention, we continue to fortify this energy, together.

It’s not about building walls. It is about honouring boundaries so that we can open up even more, with greater safety, clarity and conviction.

While it was not ok what these people did to violate our and my space, I recognize that something in their lives is driving them to feel such need. I pray that the energy of the space and my sacred objects bring them some positive and transformational vibes!! I will not lose energy by holding any resentment there.  In fact, they would be welcome in my next Heart Circle so that we can meet eye to eye and heart to heart. 🙂

The gift of today’s experience

The gift of today’s experience is clear to me – to know and hold firmly to my sacred boundaries and my sovereign being, while at the same time keeping my heart wide open in honour of my truth, and that in doing so I am holding myself and the work I do with fierce love.

Today’s experience also rooted in me even deeper the importance of this work and the need for Heart Circles. We need spaces to feel all there is to be felt, to speak out our truth, to hear and feel it ourselves, as well as to be witnessed in our authenticity. We need each other to get through the challenges we meet in life and to create new, safe and loving human experiences that counteract some of the outer violence of this world. We need each other to remember and dare to stay open in our hearts no matter what life is throwing our way.

It’s not ok for anyone to violate another person’s space, whether that is their home, their temple, their physical body or their energetic body. It’s not ok for anyone to violate sacred space, and this includes that which may be invisible but is created by heart intention.

At the same time, nothing can take away the sacredness of our hearts, our bodies, or our intentions, as long as we choose to acknowledge and honour our own divine goodness.

Let’s keep honouring our boundaries and choosing to stay open in love – fierce love.

Roar!!!!

 

Listen deeply, live courageously, love fiercely.
Georgina

 

If this is not your intention, then it is not yoga!

Last week in my yoga classes I asked the participants what they understood by ‘Fierce Love’. Words that were shared included, unconditional lovenon-judgementacceptanceunwavering presence, empowering, letting go, allowing, kindness …. and so on. In general there was a feeling of connecting to their core values here.

However, as we discussed more what it meant to embody Fierce Love in everyday life (including for instance, loving a person who seems the most difficult to love, loving even where you are being hurt, and loving yourself even when you feel unloveable), it emerged that most people had no clearly defined and conscious intention or aspiration to love, or learn to love, in this way.

Maybe it was a vague idea mixed up in the whole process of personal development. Maybe it was linked to loving their children, family and significant other. But to love fiercely and unconditionally all people and life, no matter what was coming back, was certainly not a consciously chosen intention for their yoga practice or as their ultimate purpose in life.

I have to admit, call me naïve if you like, but I was stunned!

I wondered, am I a poor teacher? Have I not been able to appropriately share and transmit the values of yoga and spiritual practice?

Very courageously, one woman then shared that she did not think that she knew how or had the capacity to love in that way. Yes, I understand this feeling.

Another commented that receiving such love would mean a big responsibility to let in that love and to give back. And yes, again, I understand this feeling.

Many referred to the difficulty of holding this unconditional love for themselves. I get that too.

Fierce Love touches our core human wounds

I started to realise that, of course, when we talk about fierce love, and what it really means to embody that, we are touching on such deep core human wounds. Wounds like rejection, abandonment, injustice, humiliation and betrayal. The wound of core unworthiness, that “I do not deserve such love”. Wounds that exist within all of us through human conditioning and that cause us to shy away from what is in fact our deepest longing – to be loved and to love unconditionally.

As a result, and because the challenge of learning love is so epic – indeed I believe it is our greatest challenge in this lifetime – we actually lose sight of our longing. We hide it even from ourselves. Perhaps it’s the fear of failing. Perhaps it’s the shame of not knowing how to love in that way, while deep down we ultimately know that we are love and long for love.  Fear of uncovering our vulnerability.

How normal and understandable it all is, too, when most of us have never really experienced pure unconditional love. How could we emulate it if we have never received it? Perhaps divine or universal love is the closest we can get to it but the human love, though perhaps not intentionally, is mostly marred with messy attachments, judgements and conditions. We have learnt to fear loving too much in case we get hurt.

My Personal Commitment

In that moment, I realised, even deeper in my heart, how important this work is. I re-committed to making this my life purpose, to learn to love fiercely and to find ways to help all of us explore together what it means, what it takes and what it feels like to truly embody fierce love in life.

love-is-the-ultimate-and-the-highest-goal-to-which-man-can-aspire-quote-1Ok this is not easy, and I will be the first to stand up and say that this is hugely challenging for me to live out every day. Yet, deep down I know that it is my truth, and all of our ultimate truths, and that we all have the capacity to love fiercely and unconditionally. This is what we are. We have just forgotten.

The Fierce Love Retreat is one such contribution to this commitment, along with all of the Heart Circles I run where we come together to remember and practice.

It’s not about whether we succeed or not. 

It’s not about being successful and achieving some ultimate goal of perfection. It matters more that we have the desire and the will to hold the intention, to try and to persevere.

First of all then, we must aspire to it – we must aspire to remember and reveal the love that we are made of – and choose this as the purpose of our Sadhana – our daily spiritual practice – in whatever form that takes.

I will go as far as to say, that if this is not the purpose of your practice, then it is not yoga!

 

“Listen deeply,
Live courageously,
Love fiercely.”

Love Georgina

 

 

The human heart is never completely born

Though the human body is born complete in one moment, the human heart is never completely born. It is being birthed in every experience of your life. Everything that happens to you has the potential to deepen you. It brings to birth within you new territories of the heart.

What incredibly beautiful words from the Irish poet and philosopher, John O’Donohue, acknowledging the infinite potential and intelligence of the heart.

Why on earth would we limit ourselves or cut off short the depths of such potential? Is it fear, education, not wanting or just not knowing how to feel so much?

We fear what we long for the most. We are inspired by those who dare and we know ourselves better through their expression. Yet alone it can seem insurmountable to go to such depths of the human heart.

Somehow, this incredible human heart keeps knocking on the door of our consciousness, usually through the body, yearning for more and letting us know when we are off course, abandoning our truth. We are guided again and again back home. Thank goodness for that!

Are you listening? Are you ready to unlock your heart intelligence? Are you ready for fierce love?

Listen deeply - Live courageously - Love fiercely. Georgina Peard

Listen deeply – Live courageously – Love fiercely. Georgina Peard


UNLOCK YOUR HEART INTELLIGENCE

4-week Introduction to Heart Circle and Conscious Relating
starting Monday 19th September 2016

When we sit together in circle and drop into our hearts, with no other intention but to meet ourselves and each other, something amazing happens. We experience the relief of finally being ourselves with others. This relief unlocks potential, frees up energy and releases innate joy.

Join an experiential group training programme that will introduce you to the key skills of Heart Intelligence – the art of living with meaningful, heartfelt and authentic connection with yourself and others.

3 live online video meetings and one full day event in Rolle, Switzerland.

Learn to:

  • effectively tune in to what you are feeling,
  • get clear on what you want,
  • communicate your needs,
  • build authentic connection with others, and
  • navigate the resistance that holds you back.

An uplifting and powerful human experience focusing on your joy and full potential.

Contact me to join a group: georgina.peard@gmail.com

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FIERCE LOVE RETREAT

Transforming fear into empowered and embodied love
with Georgina Peard and Niels Madsen
13 – 16 October 2016 (French Jura, near Geneva)

Folks, this is the most powerful and transformative retreat I have proposed yet. Are you ready? The time is now! We desperately need more fierce love in the world!
This is a 3.5-day retreat for men and women who are ready to step into their power and access their own wholehearted truth. It’s for those who refuse to close their hearts or numb out their sensitivity, but rather open up with more courage and compassion to bring their gifts to the world.

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Fierce Love – from fear to empowered love

Fierce Love is believing that everyone, including you, is worthy of love, at all times.

Everyone… is worthy of love… at all times.

In any moment we are either choosing fear or love. Very often it’s an unconscious reaction to life circumstances, based on conditioning, past experiences and wounds.

Fear tends to put us into fight, flight or freeze mode. It creates contraction and tension in the body. There can be resistance, protection, defensiveness, righteousness, projection and judgement. It can be turned inward on yourself or outward onto others or life itself. Fear creates separation and difference.

Love feels open, expansive and spacious in the body. Energy flows freely. There is complete ownership and responsibility for yourself. There’s a sense of “live and let live”, giving others the space to be themselves. There’s a welcoming of life. Love heals through connection, understanding and compassion. It flows through vulnerability and honesty.

Everyone has their own story, their own path and their own challenges. They are doing what they can with what they’ve got, including their inner resources, their pain, their ignorance and their confusion. Even if their actions and words may seem wrong or inflict pain on you or others, can you still hold a place in your heart to love them?

This is Fierce Love.

Fierce Love is staying open in a state of love even when you’re not receiving love back or being give any good reason to love. 

I believe it’s possible to express anger from a place of love. It’s possible to not agree with someone’s actions or perspective, and still hold them in love. It’s possible to be in a state of empowered self-love even when you feel guilt or shame or fear.

I don’t believe it’s easy! But I believe it’s possible.

Fierce Love is a conscious, empowered and embodied state of being, whereby love is unconditional, human and universal. 

Fierce Love means expanding into a full expression of your aliveness. Georgina Peard.

Fierce Love means expanding into a full expression of your aliveness. Georgina Peard.

When I drop deeply into meditation with myself and with life, when everything else is removed, all I find is love. That’s all that remains. That’s all that I am and that we all are. Love.

Love is what we are made of. It’s our true nature. 

I want to know then how to make that real in every day life. If in my deepest core and in my heart of heart’s I know that I am love, and that we are all that, how do we make that our experience of life and each other? How do we hold true to that when it seems that it’s more common to meet fear, our own and others?

I don’t have the perfect answer. I often get it wrong.

My longing, however, is to learn. I want to live my life through love not fear.
I commit myself entirely to learning what it takes to keep choosing love. The conscious ‘want’, I believe, is at least the first step.

It hurts to experience anything else other than love. Whether I create that myself, or experience it in relationship to another person, or witness it in life, it’s painful.

It feels painful and destructive to hold anything else in my body and in my heart. And yet I have done. And yet I do. But my longing is to move away from that. To bring consciousness and awareness to what I am choosing. To work out what is fierce love, to work out what it takes to love fiercely in life.

There’s a part of me that wants to hide away and make my life really safe and comfortable, so that I can’t be hurt. It serves me well quite often to create my own world where I can ride my rainbow unicorn!! And sometimes that place is the only place from which I can continue to fill up on love and bring it out into the world. Yet I realise that at times the hiding away from life’s messiness is fear not love.

It takes fierce perseverance, determination, courage and self-worthiness to keep facing fear and choosing love. This is why I call it fierce love.

Fierce Love is making decisions, speaking the truth, and taking inspired and courageous action that honours your own divinity, your heart, and your goodness.

Can you have your heart broken and yet not close down in fear and protection, not become bitter or vengeful, and not blame or judge? It’s not about accepting or being ok with wrong-doing or any act that is not of love toward you. Rather, it is loving yourself so much that you choose to speak your truth and walk away. You choose to close that door in order to be able to stay in a state of love – open, spacious and free in yourself. You move away while at the same time holding the other person with love and wishing them well.

Life kindly gives us opportunities and situations where it seems difficult to love and where we are tested to dig deeper into the well of love to discover that it is in fact infinite.

Love is the one thing that has no limit.

It can be difficult to love ourselves at times. But not loving yourself is simply a continuation of the fear and violence outside, and therefore allowing it to continue within gives it reason to exist outside.

If we want more love in the world outside we must first start with more love within.

A sensitive heart, like mine, longs for nothing more that to love and be loved. The sensitive heart feels the world deeply. And so those of us who feel deeply are often the first to learn, at a young age, to protect and shut out the tremendous pain and discomfort of this confused reality that has lost touch with love.

Yet we need more sensitive hearts. More wholehearted people, willing to speak out and act from love and for love.

Let’s not allow the fear defeat and kill the love and compassion. Rather, let’s get together to acknowledge and feel stronger in love. Let’s use the messiness and intensity of life, not to build up walls of protection and separation, but rather to bring us together to learn love, grace, adaptability, humility, curiosity, and humour.

I call us to come together to learn what it means to love fiercely. 

So I call together those of us who want this; those of us who have the courage to try and to seek; those of us who know in our hearts that we are good, that we are love and we have a longing to make that manifest in our actions, words, thoughts, in how we live our lives, and in how we relate to others.

I call us together to sit together to learn and practice this together. This is a vulnerable and courageous path for it opens us up. It sheds light on the shadow, the ego and the monkey mind. It sheds light on what’s not working, as well as on the truth that unites us and that pulls us together.

This is a path that is honest, authentic, messy, beautiful, exhilarating. It’s not the easy one. It’s beyond the comfort zone.

For many of us there is no choice, because the only way for us to live in our truth is to live in love, fierce love.


ARE YOU READY TO EXPERIENCE FIERCE LOVE?

Join me and Niels Madsen at the upcoming Fierce Love Retreat. 

Book your place: georgina.peard@gmail.com

 

Toes in the grass Yoga flow (video)

Video

In my last post I shared some of the Remarkable Health Benefits of Yoga in the grass.

To help you out with some inspiration to get you off the mat and onto the grass this summer, I filmed a short video of my own practice. It’s a gentle yet dynamic flow sequence, combining a modified sun salutation and my warrior goddess dance. It’s just 7 minutes long and includes some of my favourite music by the magnificent Peruquois.

So enjoy and tell me how it feels to practice this sequence and have that fresh green grass between your toes!

With love.

 

Hello 2016 – Here I AM!

As I step nervously toward the edge I feel weak in my legs. Nothing but vast Atlantic Ocean reaches out before me. No land stands between me and the West Coast of Africa. The rising sun is mirrored on the swelling waters. Almost 100m of a drop below me to the frothing waves crashing against the cliffs, sculpted by the never-ending beat of the sea. The warm Caribbean winds gust around me, testing my balance. On the narrow rock beneath me a number of fiercely prickly cacti await any misplaced step or loss of balance. Standing alone here on the Southern most tip of Antigua on New Year’s day 2016, I feel called to step out onto this overhanging cliff edge. “Crikey!” I wonder. “What on earth for?”

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This is the spot for my New Year ritual! I went back the next day with my sister who took this picture. Southern Coast, Antigua. © Georgina Peard

Imagining some passionate and triumphant Kate-Winslet-on-the-Titanic-type moment, I find myself on the edge of fear and elation. In honesty, more fear than elation! There is no Leonardo DiCaprio to hold me safe here!!

I feel incredibly vulnerable. 

Face-to-face with the immensity and power of nature, I feel tiny. The insignificance of ME and my life is glaring at me.

I try to ground down through my feet and legs. “C’mon, I can do this. I’m a yogic, shamanic, spiritually-connected, free, inspired -being for goodness sake!! What is there to be scared of? Trust more. Let go. Feel the stability rising up from the support of the Earth.”

I desperately want to drop to all fours and hold on for dear life, but with me and the “fierce” cacti on this bit of rock there’s not enough space for hands and feet. “Dammit! This is ridiculous. What am I trying to prove?”

But something in me keeps me there. I consciously experience the fear rather than shying away from it back to my comfort zone. 

I am aware of the voices playing in my mind – “don’t be stupid, get away from the edge, the rocks could crumble or the wind catch you”, “there’s nothing to be afraid of, it’s all in your mind, anyone else could do that easy”.

“HERE I AM!” I hear myself suddenly shout out at the top of my lungs. I breathe deep and do it a few more times. I start to realise what I am doing.

Here I AM with all my fear and doubt and vulnerability.

Here I AM with all my vices and failings and weaknesses.

Here I AM with all my strengths and gifts and accomplishments.

Here I AM with all my stuff.

Here I AM as me, in this moment, a work in progress.

Here I AM authentically human. No more. No less.

Here I AM 2016.

In this moment, there is no proclaiming limitless power or holding on to dreamy visions and hopes of what I want to be or think I should be. The visceral fear has me totally present, stripped down to the naked truth. I am humbled. I am real.

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“HERE I AM !!” Stepping out and showing up with ALL I am! Heart open, legs still a little nervous! © Georgina Peard

As I step into 2016 I choose to show up in my naked truth. To be honest and compassionate and confident in my awesome imperfection. To engage fully and courageously in the human experience with all I am. Yes all of it! And I choose to DARE GREATLY. 

(Indeed, I owe much to my inspiring read during the end of year holidays of Brené Brown’s “Daring Greatly” which I highly recommend!! )

I step slightly back from the edge where I find a little bit more space to move. I let my heart and soul sing as loud as I want. No-one can hear. I chant and and let my body move as I perform an intuitive ritual to celebrate and welcome in this new year.

A big brown pelican takes flight from below and surfs gracefully the gusts of wind. I start to feel in my body the power of the ocean, the wind, the sun and the land. The fear and vulnerability are still there but I am leaning into them, accepting the discomfort and dancing with it. It feels good!

Finally, I jump back off the overhang and breathe a sigh of relief as I settle back into my comfort zone. I acknowledge my courage and at the same time giggle at my self for the drama!!

That little unexpected adventure reminded me of what it takes and how it feels to step out of my comfort zone; that I can stand consciously in my fear and vulnerability; and that this is where I may grow the most.

On the edge of the comfort zone is where we are most ALIVE! 

Wishing you a very happy, healthy and abundant 2016.
May you dare greatly and enjoy the ride!

Happy New Year! Original artwork by Georgina Peard :)) © Georgina Peard

 

Do you know your WHY?

“When you know your WHY, your WHAT has more impact because you are walking in or toward your purpose” Michael JR comedian 

I hear it all the time that people are not yet clear on their purpose. They are stuck in focusing on the WHAT and the HOW and the WHEN!

I believe that not knowing your WHY is a key factor leading to boredom, anxiety, depression, stress and burn-out. It can make our Chi or Prana, life-force energy, stagnate. In shamanic terms we can call it ‘soul loss’.

This is my own personal experience. Back in 2009-2010 I was fast burning-out, suffering anaemia and chronic fatigue, and struggling to pick myself up. I knew I needed to rekindle the fire of passion within me. I needed to find my WHY!

We do not need to know “how” or “where”, but there is one question that we should all ask whenever we start anything: “What am I doing this for?” Paolo Coelho, The Valkyries

If you don’t know WHY you are doing something, it’s pretty hard to keep motivated and enthusiastic about it, and its all too easy to go off track (way off track over time), and follow old conditioning or other people’s desires (those who do know their WHY).

  • WHY do you do the job you do?
  • WHY are you passionate about your sport / your pet / …….?
  • WHY do you eat the way you do?
  • WHY are you in the relationship you are in?
  • WHY do you want to have a daily yoga or meditation practice?
  • WHY do you think the way you do about……?
  • WHY do you NOT make your dreams come true?

Are you doing it because it makes you feel great? Are you doing it for someone else? Because it seems to be the right thing to do? Because it just happened like that? Because you are actually afraid of your own happiness, light and power? Maybe it felt right before but is it still right for you now?

If it is not nourishing you, WHY are you still doing it?

Perhaps it doesn’t need a radical change, to leave your family, change jobs and fly off to the Tropics! Perhaps it just needs a reflection and repositioning of the WHY!

In shamanic terms we talk about stalking awareness – going out on the ‘hunt’.

It is time to start STALKING your WHY!!!

Check out this short Michael JR video on Facebook for a fabulously inspiring and uplifting example of the difference between just doing something because you can, and doing it with passion because it’s got meaning for you, and you know WHY!

Michael JR comedian

So what is my big WHY? 

It is to support people to come home to their hearts and remember who they truly are, because I believe that when we remember and drop into our open hearts…..

  • we awaken, together;
  • we act out of love rather than fear, and love heals;
  • we free ourselves of conditioning and explore our limitless joy and potential;
  • we nourish our minds, bodies and souls, and remember vibrant wellness;
  • and we live joyfully on purpose, in service.

What is your WHY…..?  

Please do share as it is inspiring for everyone and helps others get clear on their own WHYs.