Navigating the Dark

I seem to be apologising a lot lately! My shadow side showing up and getting projected out on to others. Perhaps it’s a quick cutting comment, or an energetic withdrawal and being cold, or more easily being in conflict. Sometimes it’s a sense of inner turmoil and feeling down, with self-doubt and addictive or self-defeating patterns showing up. Bleh! I don’t like when this is going on. I feel my body tense and a bit numb to emotions. I feel my vibrations low. I can sense I’m being protective or defensive. My mind is not trustworthy.

It’s a bit like walking through a bog (very Irish analogy), trying to tip-toe through, yet every so often dropping in up to your knees, or even falling flat on your face in the mud, and then blaming someone else rather than laughing out loud and rolling around in it!

Does any of this resonate for you? I’m hearing it from many people these days.

Navigating the dark, (c) Georgina Peard

Navigating the dark, (c) Georgina Peard

But of course!! Of course it’s so strong right now at the time of the Samhain, as we move into the darkest part of the year. We also had the dark new moon in Scorpio last weekend. Nature is always reflecting in and through us.

There is a blessing here folks! Oh yes! If this is showing up for you now, or whenever it does, it’s because you are being invited to acknowledge and love these shadow parts and the powerful energy they contain. No-one is whole without their shadow integrated.

You can try to fight it, hide it, ignore it, deny it, throw it away, and clean it up, but this will never work. Instead, own your shadow, name it, befriend it, dance with it, harness it and then channel it through the heart.

The dark holds your greatest gifts and power.  

The stronger the energy for you, the stronger the initiation. Congratulations, its means you are ready for this big transformation! This energy locked in the shadow is ready to be revealed. Are you ready to step up and be more of you?

When our shadows show up, it’s so easy to allow negative thoughts take over and feed a self-depracating inner dialogue. Our actions can exaggerate the situation, like not getting enough sleep, always staying busy, over-eating, spending too much time on the internet, or snapping at loved ones.

These thoughts and actions stem from a deep pain – the pain of feeling that, because of these shadow parts, we are bad, fake, and undeserving of good things, like love, community, success and happiness. As a result we choose the safe path in life and not to show up fully or go after what we want (in case we are found out and rejected, abandoned, humiliated etc.).

This is our core unworthiness and, the good news is, we all have it. 

The relief comes when we realise we are all the same, we all hold shame around these shadow parts, and so we step out of the fear of this unworthiness and we dare to face and befriend the shadow.

The extent to which you can take full responsibility and hold strong self-love for yourself when working with shadows, is the gauge of your personal growth and awakening. It’s not that they never show up again.

Navigating your inner landscape, and especially the dark, with love and compassion, humour and humility, is key to your freedom and happiness. 

BRING MORE CONSCIOUSNESS AND LOVE TO YOUR SHADOWS :

  • Make time to be still with yourself. Listen and feel what is really going on for you.
  • Love yourself and the shadow parts, like a mother unconditionally loving a child.
  • Give your shadow a name (mine is Gertrude) and role play with her/them.
  • Acknowledge your deeper pain and your needs.
  • Share your shadows, pain and needs with someone who can love you there.
  • Practice apologising in a way that you take full responsibility for your part.
  • Get more rest and sleep.
  • Take walks in nature on your own and open to her wisdom. Sing, dance, breathe.
  • Get clear on what you have learned.
  • Celebrate your progress.

Thank you
Finally, thank you for doing this work and bringing more consciousness to your shadows. Here I am just touching the surface of this subject, but it is, in my opinion, the most important ‘work’ we can do to transform our lives, our relationships and our communities.

Be gentle with yourself. All healing has its time. The first step is just to love yourself and know that all the way to your core, you are good, all good, and you are loved.

 

Listen deeply
Live courageously
Love fiercely

Georgina x

Fall in Love with your Longing

Longing is what drives you forward. It gives you courage. It fuels your passion. It ensures your innovation and evolution.

Often, however, we confuse it with a story of not having and get lost in the pain and suffering of ‘lack’. We seek quick fixes and ways to numb it out. We project and blame others for not meeting the need of this longing. We rant and rage. We grasp and fall victim.

Yet deep down this exquisite throbbing is a divine blessing, where pain and pleasure and power combine to ignite your life-force energy.

Longing pulls you out of mundane, mediocre existence. It inspires possibility and fuels greatness.

Longing makes you curious. It drives you to seek.

This longing yearns to be felt; felt by you.

What is this longing? Go deeper. And deeper again. Keep asking and go as deep as you can go to feel the true longing in your heart, in your body, in your soul.

Feel the energy, feel the emptiness, without doing anything about it, to fulfil it or numb it out.

Completely surrender, and keep surrendering to the ache of this longing.

Ride the wave of its force and fall in love with its pulse.

Get to know your longing intimately.

Your longing, when it is fully embraced, will set you free!

 

the longing

“For Longing” a poem by John O’Donohue

blessed be the longing that brought you here
and quickens your soul with wonder.

may you have the courage to listen to the voice of desire
that disturbs you when you have settled for something safe.

may you have the wisdom to enter generously into your own unease
to discover the new direction your longing wants you to take.

may the forms of your belonging – in love, creativity, and friendship –
be equal to the grandeur and the call of your soul.

may the one you long for long for you.
may your dreams gradually reveal the destination of your desire.

may a secret providence guide your thought and nurture your feeling.

may your mind inhabit your life with the sureness
with which your body inhabits the world.

may your heart never be haunted by ghost-structures of old damage.

may you come to accept your longing as divine urgency.
may you know the urgency with which God longs for you.

Listen deeply, Live courageously, Love fiercely
Georgina x

My response to having my sacred space violated

 

Today as I arrived to set up for my Heart Circle I found our space had been broken into and burgled. Cupboards were open and everything had been searched and tossed around. I had that uncomfortable feeling of shock and fear rush through my body. Instead of carrying out a ritual to prepare the energy for our circle and open a healing space for raw and vulnerable heart sharing, I had to call the police.

I was shaken.

I was even more shaken when I discovered they had entered my temple space, where I hold all my sacred bodywork. They took from my altar my Buddha, mala beads, rattle and ceremonial feather. Really strange, yes! In fact they took nothing else but these, as they found no money.

It feels like it would have been easier though to let go of money, than to feel the violation of my sacred space.

Of course, at a superficial level it is nothing important. But there is something here that goes deeper, and to let it pass by as ‘nothing’ would be to let such violation be ok, and to dishonour something very sacred. This simple burglary is tiny but it represents something so much more common and almost accepted in our society.

“I have been robbed of this opportunity,” one of the participants realised as she struggled to manage the sudden feelings. Having sought out a loving, healing space and prepared to show up vulnerably and authentically with others in Heart Circle, this unexpected violent intrusion came as such a blow to her tender heart. I get it.

It’s not ok.

I have experienced being burgled before. I have been robbed in my home twice, and from a tent once while I was sleeping. Another time I was lying on a beach dozing in the sun when I had a vision of being robbed. I opened my eyes to find a man sitting beside me taking everything out of my handbag. Freaky but I had my guardian angels helping me out!

I have never enjoyed the feeling. Interestingly, though, while I’ve always experienced the shock and adrenaline rush in my body, and then perhaps the sadness and vulnerability, I never felt anger. There is a part of me that actually finds it very easy to let it go and forgive the violator, knowing that material objects are not important. As long as people are safe, all is fine.

While this has always been my honest, authentic response in the moment, and it is helpful to act pragmatically in the situation, I realize that it could also partly be a conditioned, protective response to avoid feeling too much, especially anger (which tends to be conditioned out of us) and to stay ‘level-headed’. On the other hand, lashing out in anger or spouting out words of hate or blame is useless too and just projecting out inner violence.

However, as I have grown stronger and more conscious in myself, I realize that this conditioned response is ignoring my own sovereign and sacred being and that it is not ok to violate my boundaries and my space. I was being quite vague around honouring my own boundaries. Yes, I genuinely felt safe in myself and loving towards others, even the thieves, and at the same time, it was a reflection of lacking some access to my inner fire.

What would be a normal response?

If I have my personal sacred space violated, I consider that a normal response is to feel the pain, the anger, the disgust, and the vulnerability of such violation. A normal response is to react in fury to personal, sovereign boundaries being crossed. A normal response is fierce protection of the sacred, authentic, vulnerable and the loving heart space, and those I am inviting in or holding within this tender space. This is the same ferociousness of any mother protecting her children.

It is essential to give space to all parts to be felt and not to deny them. This way you start to access more of yourself, your inner fire and your aliveness.

Now I recognize when I might be denying something, and I give myself time and space to drop into feeling it. Now I realise that in feeling all that there is to be felt around this violation of sacred space, I am honouring the sacred feminine.

Act in fierce protection of your sacred boundaries.

Act in fierce protection of your sacred boundaries. (c) Georgina Peard

Taking time to feel and clear the energy

So, today, after spending time with the participants, dealing with the police, and observing my first response and reactions, I went to the forest and gave myself full permission to feel all that needed to be felt; to say all that needed to be said; and to hear all that needed to be heard.

At first, I sat in stillness and dropped in to access what was there in the different parts of me. As I allowed myself to feel more, I let out the roars of anger and the cries of disgust and pain. I acknowledged the fear, the hurt and the sadness. I proclaimed my sovereign power as my birthright and reinstated my boundaries. I forgave. I sat still and I listened again and again. I followed instinctively my body until I felt I was complete in my own joy and in my clarity. I felt I had owned all that was mine and let go all that was not mine. I felt grounded and like, this time, I had honoured myself fully.

Nothing of my heart or my true divine essence can be taken from me by anyone as I long as I don’t allow it, and as long as I consciously honour this goodness in me.  Nothing from what I know and do with honour and integrity can be tarnished by anyone else’s judgements or disrespect. My truth is my truth.

I also did this for all of us who come into and consciously create sacred heart space.

I then went and did the same in the physical space and in my temple. I lit a candle and created an altar. I drummed and chanted and removed all unwanted energy. I reinstated the sanctity of the place. I called in the guardians of the space to fortify the energy and the safety. With every massage and healing session, yoga, meditation or pilates class, and every gathering and heart intention, we continue to fortify this energy, together.

It’s not about building walls. It is about honouring boundaries so that we can open up even more, with greater safety, clarity and conviction.

While it was not ok what these people did to violate our and my space, I recognize that something in their lives is driving them to feel such need. I pray that the energy of the space and my sacred objects bring them some positive and transformational vibes!! I will not lose energy by holding any resentment there.  In fact, they would be welcome in my next Heart Circle so that we can meet eye to eye and heart to heart. 🙂

The gift of today’s experience

The gift of today’s experience is clear to me – to know and hold firmly to my sacred boundaries and my sovereign being, while at the same time keeping my heart wide open in honour of my truth, and that in doing so I am holding myself and the work I do with fierce love.

Today’s experience also rooted in me even deeper the importance of this work and the need for Heart Circles. We need spaces to feel all there is to be felt, to speak out our truth, to hear and feel it ourselves, as well as to be witnessed in our authenticity. We need each other to get through the challenges we meet in life and to create new, safe and loving human experiences that counteract some of the outer violence of this world. We need each other to remember and dare to stay open in our hearts no matter what life is throwing our way.

It’s not ok for anyone to violate another person’s space, whether that is their home, their temple, their physical body or their energetic body. It’s not ok for anyone to violate sacred space, and this includes that which may be invisible but is created by heart intention.

At the same time, nothing can take away the sacredness of our hearts, our bodies, or our intentions, as long as we choose to acknowledge and honour our own divine goodness.

Let’s keep honouring our boundaries and choosing to stay open in love – fierce love.

Roar!!!!

 

Listen deeply, live courageously, love fiercely.
Georgina

 

Love is the Nature of the Soul. So why then does it hurt so much?

The soul needs love as urgently as the body needs air. In the warmth of love, the soul can be itself. All the possibilities of your human destiny are asleep in your soul. You are here to release and honour these possibilities…..Love is the nature of the soul. When we love and allow our selves to be loved, we begin more and more to inhabit the kingdom of the eternal. Fear changes into courage, emptiness becomes plenitude and distance becomes intimacy…..We do not need to go out to find love, rather we need to be still and let love discover us.” John O’Donohue

We all seek love. Without it we feel a deep emptiness. Our hunger sends us off in all sorts of confused directions, with “false urgency” as John O’Donohue says, seeking to fill, or otherwise not feel, this emptiness. Food, work, cigarettes, alcohol, television, relationships, sex, constant changes, overactive mind…… many games we play and (of course) still we feel unsatiated.

Let love dis-cover you. (c) Georgina Peard

Let love dis-cover you. (c) Georgina Peard

Love is the nature of the soul. Love is what you are.

It is, therefore, when you stop chasing and seeking it outside yourself that you can allow it find you, as O’Donohue says. It’s not that some knight in shining armour will turn up to save you from your sorrows and make you feel complete in every way, like we might have been led to believe in fairytales. Rather, the nature of your soul can finally be revealed.

We do need others to experience love. Yet, the experience of love is within us. All experience is within us. We must feel it within ourselves to experience it. So others help us to experience love within ourselves.

No matter how much love is coming your way, if you are not open to experiencing love in yourself, you cannot feel it.

There must be a softening, a deepening, a stillness to drop into and reveal the nature of the soul that is love. 

It’s like a chocolate moelleux desert. As we let the outer layers soften, we discover the delicious oozing chocolate melt in the middle. Without this it just isn’t a moelleux, right?! For me a chocolate moelleux calls for slowing down, devotion, admiration, a tender hand, taking time to feel the textures in my mouth and allow all the sensations to explode within. It’s like it opens my heart in awe and wonder. Time stands still. For a moment I am fulfilled. Fully alive! Is it love, do you think?!!! Haha!

Oops! Sorry, I got distracted and carried away there for a moment just imagining it!!

So why does love hurt so much?

When you peal back the layers to truly reveal this love within you, it can feel enormous, expansive like it is almost too big for the body, ecstatic, and often painful. It can feel so overwhelming to feel so much that you may rush to close it down as quickly as possible. Yes, of course, because it is like dying into the realisation of what you are – love. It is so big, so expansive, so complete, so overwhelming.

There is no identity here, no separation between me and you. Everything melts into love. This is terrifying for the ego or ‘small I’. It connects this to danger. Danger of being hurt. Danger of being destroyed – because indeed it is – so it scrambles to hold on to something again, and closes you down with fear. It blocks the experience of pure love, for a while, or perhaps a long time.

However, the calling of the soul and the nature of the soul is to come home to itself, to its full realisation. It will drive you to distraction and craziness as long as you keep scrambling for other ways to complete yourself.

Until finally, you make the conscious choice, perhaps because there is no other option left, to sit still and let love dis-cover you.

Finally it will crack you open.

Finally you surrender to your true nature. Finally the pain of being cracked open subsides to the most exquisite sense of completeness that you have ever experienced. Finally you are home in the true nature of your soul. This is love.

Now the journey may truly begin.

 

Remember to:
Listen deeply.

Live courageously.
Love fiercely.

With love, Georgina x

If this is not your intention, then it is not yoga!

Last week in my yoga classes I asked the participants what they understood by ‘Fierce Love’. Words that were shared included, unconditional lovenon-judgementacceptanceunwavering presence, empowering, letting go, allowing, kindness …. and so on. In general there was a feeling of connecting to their core values here.

However, as we discussed more what it meant to embody Fierce Love in everyday life (including for instance, loving a person who seems the most difficult to love, loving even where you are being hurt, and loving yourself even when you feel unloveable), it emerged that most people had no clearly defined and conscious intention or aspiration to love, or learn to love, in this way.

Maybe it was a vague idea mixed up in the whole process of personal development. Maybe it was linked to loving their children, family and significant other. But to love fiercely and unconditionally all people and life, no matter what was coming back, was certainly not a consciously chosen intention for their yoga practice or as their ultimate purpose in life.

I have to admit, call me naïve if you like, but I was stunned!

I wondered, am I a poor teacher? Have I not been able to appropriately share and transmit the values of yoga and spiritual practice?

Very courageously, one woman then shared that she did not think that she knew how or had the capacity to love in that way. Yes, I understand this feeling.

Another commented that receiving such love would mean a big responsibility to let in that love and to give back. And yes, again, I understand this feeling.

Many referred to the difficulty of holding this unconditional love for themselves. I get that too.

Fierce Love touches our core human wounds

I started to realise that, of course, when we talk about fierce love, and what it really means to embody that, we are touching on such deep core human wounds. Wounds like rejection, abandonment, injustice, humiliation and betrayal. The wound of core unworthiness, that “I do not deserve such love”. Wounds that exist within all of us through human conditioning and that cause us to shy away from what is in fact our deepest longing – to be loved and to love unconditionally.

As a result, and because the challenge of learning love is so epic – indeed I believe it is our greatest challenge in this lifetime – we actually lose sight of our longing. We hide it even from ourselves. Perhaps it’s the fear of failing. Perhaps it’s the shame of not knowing how to love in that way, while deep down we ultimately know that we are love and long for love.  Fear of uncovering our vulnerability.

How normal and understandable it all is, too, when most of us have never really experienced pure unconditional love. How could we emulate it if we have never received it? Perhaps divine or universal love is the closest we can get to it but the human love, though perhaps not intentionally, is mostly marred with messy attachments, judgements and conditions. We have learnt to fear loving too much in case we get hurt.

My Personal Commitment

In that moment, I realised, even deeper in my heart, how important this work is. I re-committed to making this my life purpose, to learn to love fiercely and to find ways to help all of us explore together what it means, what it takes and what it feels like to truly embody fierce love in life.

love-is-the-ultimate-and-the-highest-goal-to-which-man-can-aspire-quote-1Ok this is not easy, and I will be the first to stand up and say that this is hugely challenging for me to live out every day. Yet, deep down I know that it is my truth, and all of our ultimate truths, and that we all have the capacity to love fiercely and unconditionally. This is what we are. We have just forgotten.

The Fierce Love Retreat is one such contribution to this commitment, along with all of the Heart Circles I run where we come together to remember and practice.

It’s not about whether we succeed or not. 

It’s not about being successful and achieving some ultimate goal of perfection. It matters more that we have the desire and the will to hold the intention, to try and to persevere.

First of all then, we must aspire to it – we must aspire to remember and reveal the love that we are made of – and choose this as the purpose of our Sadhana – our daily spiritual practice – in whatever form that takes.

I will go as far as to say, that if this is not the purpose of your practice, then it is not yoga!

 

“Listen deeply,
Live courageously,
Love fiercely.”

Love Georgina

 

 

Get your sexy goddess on and…… clean your house!

Last week I bought a dress that I will probably never wear out in public. It’s so figure-hugging that no underwear is possible and nothing is left to the imagination. Mmmmmm! It’s pretty much transparent, depending on the light. It flatters my body shape and all my feminine curves. It’s super light, with big slits up both legs and lets me move with total freedom. It’s deliciously soft and sexy, and it feels soooooooo goooood!! That’s why I bought it.

I bought it for me. I bought it to feel fabulous. I bought it so that I can dance around my house feeling totally gorgeous. And doing that gives me so much uplifting energy. I love it.

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Get your sexy goddess on to clean the house

So last weekend, after a long delicious Sunday morning lie-in, eating smooth dark-chocolate for breakfast and indulging in a spa-like sensorial shower, I slipped on that dress. Oh yes! Then I found an awesome dance playlist on Spotify, and ooooh……..I danced like crazy, it felt so good, so alive in my body, so sexy. Total freedom!!!

Then (now you might think this is totally mad)…… I got out the vacuum cleaner and I seriously sexily cleaned my house!!! Woohoo!! I had the most enjoyable house cleaning spree ever. Ahahaha!

This is my spiritual practice. This is my way of worshipping the goddess – both in terms of feeling absolutely amazing in my body and cleaning up my house, both the physical place and the energetic space and emotional space within and around me.

Spiritual practice does not need to be boring and serious and disciplined. It doesn’t have to happen on a mat in front of an altar. It can be ecstatic, exhilarating and ridiculously fun. It is about HOW you go about your daily life. In fact, when you dare to truly honour the goddess or shakti within (and this can be for the men too!!), then you have no choice but to follow some of her outrageously wild energies. She’ll take you for the ride of your life!!

So people, get your goddess on, get your sexy on, especially when you’ve got to clean the house or do the dishes or the laundry. Put on your sexiest outfit, or, even better, take it all off and just wear your birthday suit with some high heels!!! Yeehaa!

Have fun with it and, if you dare, do share how it feels (and how it looks)!!

Loving you.

 

The human heart is never completely born

Though the human body is born complete in one moment, the human heart is never completely born. It is being birthed in every experience of your life. Everything that happens to you has the potential to deepen you. It brings to birth within you new territories of the heart.

What incredibly beautiful words from the Irish poet and philosopher, John O’Donohue, acknowledging the infinite potential and intelligence of the heart.

Why on earth would we limit ourselves or cut off short the depths of such potential? Is it fear, education, not wanting or just not knowing how to feel so much?

We fear what we long for the most. We are inspired by those who dare and we know ourselves better through their expression. Yet alone it can seem insurmountable to go to such depths of the human heart.

Somehow, this incredible human heart keeps knocking on the door of our consciousness, usually through the body, yearning for more and letting us know when we are off course, abandoning our truth. We are guided again and again back home. Thank goodness for that!

Are you listening? Are you ready to unlock your heart intelligence? Are you ready for fierce love?

Listen deeply - Live courageously - Love fiercely. Georgina Peard

Listen deeply – Live courageously – Love fiercely. Georgina Peard


UNLOCK YOUR HEART INTELLIGENCE

4-week Introduction to Heart Circle and Conscious Relating
starting Monday 19th September 2016

When we sit together in circle and drop into our hearts, with no other intention but to meet ourselves and each other, something amazing happens. We experience the relief of finally being ourselves with others. This relief unlocks potential, frees up energy and releases innate joy.

Join an experiential group training programme that will introduce you to the key skills of Heart Intelligence – the art of living with meaningful, heartfelt and authentic connection with yourself and others.

3 live online video meetings and one full day event in Rolle, Switzerland.

Learn to:

  • effectively tune in to what you are feeling,
  • get clear on what you want,
  • communicate your needs,
  • build authentic connection with others, and
  • navigate the resistance that holds you back.

An uplifting and powerful human experience focusing on your joy and full potential.

Contact me to join a group: georgina.peard@gmail.com

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FIERCE LOVE RETREAT

Transforming fear into empowered and embodied love
with Georgina Peard and Niels Madsen
13 – 16 October 2016 (French Jura, near Geneva)

Folks, this is the most powerful and transformative retreat I have proposed yet. Are you ready? The time is now! We desperately need more fierce love in the world!
This is a 3.5-day retreat for men and women who are ready to step into their power and access their own wholehearted truth. It’s for those who refuse to close their hearts or numb out their sensitivity, but rather open up with more courage and compassion to bring their gifts to the world.

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Interested but got questions? Contact me: georgina.peard@gmail.com