Hello 2016 – Here I AM!

As I step nervously toward the edge I feel weak in my legs. Nothing but vast Atlantic Ocean reaches out before me. No land stands between me and the West Coast of Africa. The rising sun is mirrored on the swelling waters. Almost 100m of a drop below me to the frothing waves crashing against the cliffs, sculpted by the never-ending beat of the sea. The warm Caribbean winds gust around me, testing my balance. On the narrow rock beneath me a number of fiercely prickly cacti await any misplaced step or loss of balance. Standing alone here on the Southern most tip of Antigua on New Year’s day 2016, I feel called to step out onto this overhanging cliff edge. “Crikey!” I wonder. “What on earth for?”

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This is the spot for my New Year ritual! I went back the next day with my sister who took this picture. Southern Coast, Antigua. © Georgina Peard

Imagining some passionate and triumphant Kate-Winslet-on-the-Titanic-type moment, I find myself on the edge of fear and elation. In honesty, more fear than elation! There is no Leonardo DiCaprio to hold me safe here!!

I feel incredibly vulnerable. 

Face-to-face with the immensity and power of nature, I feel tiny. The insignificance of ME and my life is glaring at me.

I try to ground down through my feet and legs. “C’mon, I can do this. I’m a yogic, shamanic, spiritually-connected, free, inspired -being for goodness sake!! What is there to be scared of? Trust more. Let go. Feel the stability rising up from the support of the Earth.”

I desperately want to drop to all fours and hold on for dear life, but with me and the “fierce” cacti on this bit of rock there’s not enough space for hands and feet. “Dammit! This is ridiculous. What am I trying to prove?”

But something in me keeps me there. I consciously experience the fear rather than shying away from it back to my comfort zone. 

I am aware of the voices playing in my mind – “don’t be stupid, get away from the edge, the rocks could crumble or the wind catch you”, “there’s nothing to be afraid of, it’s all in your mind, anyone else could do that easy”.

“HERE I AM!” I hear myself suddenly shout out at the top of my lungs. I breathe deep and do it a few more times. I start to realise what I am doing.

Here I AM with all my fear and doubt and vulnerability.

Here I AM with all my vices and failings and weaknesses.

Here I AM with all my strengths and gifts and accomplishments.

Here I AM with all my stuff.

Here I AM as me, in this moment, a work in progress.

Here I AM authentically human. No more. No less.

Here I AM 2016.

In this moment, there is no proclaiming limitless power or holding on to dreamy visions and hopes of what I want to be or think I should be. The visceral fear has me totally present, stripped down to the naked truth. I am humbled. I am real.

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“HERE I AM !!” Stepping out and showing up with ALL I am! Heart open, legs still a little nervous! © Georgina Peard

As I step into 2016 I choose to show up in my naked truth. To be honest and compassionate and confident in my awesome imperfection. To engage fully and courageously in the human experience with all I am. Yes all of it! And I choose to DARE GREATLY. 

(Indeed, I owe much to my inspiring read during the end of year holidays of Brené Brown’s “Daring Greatly” which I highly recommend!! )

I step slightly back from the edge where I find a little bit more space to move. I let my heart and soul sing as loud as I want. No-one can hear. I chant and and let my body move as I perform an intuitive ritual to celebrate and welcome in this new year.

A big brown pelican takes flight from below and surfs gracefully the gusts of wind. I start to feel in my body the power of the ocean, the wind, the sun and the land. The fear and vulnerability are still there but I am leaning into them, accepting the discomfort and dancing with it. It feels good!

Finally, I jump back off the overhang and breathe a sigh of relief as I settle back into my comfort zone. I acknowledge my courage and at the same time giggle at my self for the drama!!

That little unexpected adventure reminded me of what it takes and how it feels to step out of my comfort zone; that I can stand consciously in my fear and vulnerability; and that this is where I may grow the most.

On the edge of the comfort zone is where we are most ALIVE! 

Wishing you a very happy, healthy and abundant 2016.
May you dare greatly and enjoy the ride!

Happy New Year! Original artwork by Georgina Peard :)) © Georgina Peard

 

Resolutions for 2014? Are you for or against?

I am one of those people who unashamedly loves making resolutions, dreaming about possibilities and imagining the year ahead. Why?

Because of how it makes me FEEL!

I am filled with hope, inspired by possibility, and excited by limitless potential. As I dream, for just a moment, the fear and doubt don’t exist. The ‘how’ doesn’t matter. I am filled with happy hormones!

This is about focusing on what I feel, what I want to feel, and what my heart longs for. It’s like starting fresh, taking a new perspective on myself and my life, and daring to dream that all is possible when I am in my true power.

The New Year holds particular meaning for creating intention but really every day, every moment and every breath offers the same opportunity.

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Focus on what you want to feel, not on how to get it

Last year, my mentor made me aware of Kevin Trudeau’s “Your Wish is Your Command” CD series. It highlighted for me the importance of (i) feeling good right now in order to channel positive energy and thoughts, (ii) focusing my efforts on what I want to have, feel or do as the most critical influencing factor in manifesting my dreams, and (iii) connecting to the idea or feeling of what I want as much as possible.

Based on an understanding that “we don’t know what we don’t know”, and that most indices are off our ‘radar screen’ or current awareness, it is pointless to overly focus on HOW to manifest our dreams. We simply don’t yet know what is possible or what opportunities will arise tomorrow. Over-planning and controlling, in fact, can result in limiting our potential.

I might put all my hope, for example, into a relationship (business or intimate) with one specific person simply because he is on my ‘radar screen’, he is in front of me and seems perfect. But in fact it would be better to focus on what I want to feel in a relationship since I may not yet even know the right person who may be just around the corner! I have no idea what experience I will have tomorrow that could alter my perspective.

Ok, so here goes for my heart’s longing….

In 2014 I long to experience more love, to laugh and have fun, to feel free, connected to others, supported, and vibrantly alive, to make a difference and to fearlessly follow my heart.  

Connecting to the heart

Last year I was struck by how quickly I could manifest certain dreams and desires when they were from the heart. Most often they came in a form that I could not have imagined myself. Through my practice and training with Christian Pankhurst in Heart Intelligence, I have also discovered just how challenging it is to unravel the layers of conditioning, ‘head-strong’ programming and defence mechanisms that I/we hold and to get clear on what we really want. It’s about getting rid of the habitual “I need to”, “I should”, “I have to”, and replacing them all with “I want to….”

Getting clear on your heart’s true longing often requires assistance from others who can feel into your truth as you express it (the bull shit monitor!). Your truth always feels ‘juicy’ and real. Again the key here is how it FEELS. Something moves or resonates within my body as I connect to my heart’s true longing. My eyes light up, my body relaxes, my heart opens and I instantly feel better. I feel emotional.

7 tips to meaningful resolutions 

So here are my tips on making resolutions that really come from the heart:

  1. Get into your body.  Free your body and mind of tension. Perhaps dancing, yoga, going for a run, stomping your feet or shaking the body, making sound or a massage can help. You may need to do something active first if your energy is high, and give yourself at least 15 minutes to move into your interior world.
  2. Now slow right down and relax, through slow movement and breathing, gradually moving to stillness, sitting in a chair or on the floor.
  3. Write down the answers to these questions on paper:
    1. What am I feeling in relation to my life right now? This might include what you are feeling physically, emotionally, mentally, energetically, and intuitively. Get present and be totally honest, even if you feel numb. Don’t get into any stories!
    2. What do I long to feel in my life in relation to: (i) My health?  (ii) My relationship(s)? (iii) My work?  (iv) ….?
    3. How do I want to show up in the world this year? How does this feel? What does it look like? (Tip: you can change this to this week or today or even this moment as a regular practice.)
  4. Tune-in regularly as you ask these questions to how you are feeling in your body. Try to drop down into your heart rather than searching for the answers in your head. Ask the question and wait, let the answer come to you as you feel into it.
  5. As you notice any doubts and fears sneaking in during or after this process, try saying the following: “Ok I acknowledge that fear and limiting belief but right now I choose not to believe it.”
  6. Keep these answers somewhere safe, perhaps in your ‘dream book’, and look at them regularly. Don’t worry for now about the ‘how’ – just keep focusing on these feelings and let yourself be totally immersed in how it looks and feels to follow your heart’s longing. Permit yourself to be content in the longing.
  7. Ask a close friend (emotionally intelligent ideally) to listen as you express your heart’s longing. Their role is to FEEL and share with you what moves for them as you express yourself. They must not judge or give advice or criticism. Their sole purpose is to give their spontaneous response in terms of what moves for them. To be heard expressing your heart’s desire can be very powerful!!!

Let me know how you get on, if this is useful and share your intentions and heart’s desires for 2014 below. What other techniques do you use to connect to your hearts’ longing?